Not The News I Wanted

I would like to start this post by stating that I really hate having PCOS. Ok. Now that that has been said, I went to the doctor a few weeks ago to have routing blood work done. I found out that my estrogen levels have not signifigantly improved since the last time I had them checked. Also my cholestoral went from 191 to 226 and my LDL went from 110 to 134. PCOS causes heart disease, diabetes and obesity along with other wonderful things like infertility and hair loss.  PCOS can kiss my a$$. So the diabetes drug I take, Metformin also known as Glucofage, will now be increased to 3x per day. This is the drug that makes me sick. Also my estrogen pill will have to be increased. I have this image where I die of a heart attack while weighing 500 lbs - childless and miserable from taking ungodly amounts of medication everyday. I sound so awfully negative. I am just mad that I lost 15 lbs and all I did was get worse. Well ok how can I spin this? Talk about motivation to eat right and exercise ! I need to trust that once I get the right combo of life style and medication that I can beat this PCOS thing. Maybe I was starting to win and PCOS said no I must fight back. I have no idea. I thought losing weight would help, but obviously I am not doing something right. I am sad, but I will get over it.