Monday, September 12, 2011
Post 107... New Dr. New Hope?
My eyes opened this morning for the second time at 5:30 am. Unlike yesterday I was able to go back to bed until 8 am. So happy. Then I weighed myself. 218!!! That means I've lost 19 lbs. in 67 days. Very proud of myself. I ordered some clothes online from old navy. I had been up to a size 18 ( tight) and ordered some size 16 jeans and some XL shirts and to my wonderful suprise they all fit loosely. This is also very positive. My next goal is 200. Which should take me another 10-15 weeks. Should be back down to s size 14 then. I am much more recognizable when I am 200 lbs or under. When I get over 200 lbs I've had people walk right on by me and not even say hi because they don't recognize me. I don't wish that feeling on anyone ever. But, I accept that this is what happened to me. I got sick. I had an underlying untreated medical condition for years and I went back and forth up and down on the scale while my hair was falling out and other weird symptoms and I got passed from dr. to dr. and finally about 3 1/2 years ago it got so bad that in a span of 2 years I gained 80 lbs. Finally I got taken seriously by a dr. It is sad I had to gain 80 lbs in 2 years for a dr. to say "yeah there is something wrong". But, I can't change the past only the future. So today I see a new dr. I hope she can answer some of the more puzzeling questions. Like, my recent extreme pain. Do I have what are called "chocolate cysts"?Do I have endometriosis? Do I have a secondary medical condition that would explain why my estrogen levels are at a 9 and not the normall 300-500? I have so many un-answered questions. This dr. may not be the one to answer them, but she is a starting point. They say you have to be your own health advocate, and that is so true. I want to be healthy and I am going to give it my all to get there.